I saw an image earlier that change my mood for the day and although I never expected I would be in tears again the feeling somehow had changed . I am peaceful now than before . It was also a long friendship and a long engagement --- was there ever an engagement ? Whatever . I would wanna ask him one thing though. How come he lost weigth that fast ? I know I'm insensitive at time but there could be another reason why . I would want to lose weigth too . I only lost 10 lbs in 2 months .

November 2 , 2009 was perhaps the long awaited moment for my family to hear that I have finally let him go for good. My oh my ...I still remember when he said you are lying to yourself , you cant leave me . I would admit to myself that I still love him and no one , no human ever could ever replace him but I need to move on with life without him.

October 25, 2009 when I first read this article from a local sunday paper and I thought of writing it down here twas like a week that I havent heard anything from him .I got worried because something migth have happend to him . Good if he asked that he would want some space but there was nothing and I guess writing the article would not be rigth at that time .

Today I believe would be the best time to write it down. Its just the perfect moment .


DOES LOVE RUN OUT ?
by Evelyn R. Luab

I didn't use the line "does love die?" Why ? Becasue it never does.
However, you and I dear readers, have experienced loved running out so many times even in crucial moments.
Many wives who have been beaten physically and emotionaly have often wondered how come there is nothing left in the cisternof love.
Duty or concern for children or fear of financial instability takes Love's place.
Sometimes, it is a sister or a brother that drains love away . How many times has a brother or a sister abused one's love ? Even the poor are not exempted from such tragedies . An older sister puts off getting married because she shoulders the education of her younger siblings. In the end, she is left holding an empty basket .
i've met men who defend their having mistresses saying " it was a mistake to force me to get married to a woman I get impregnated. I didn't want to marry her , but society and my parents insisted. Can you blame me for going to another woman when there is really nothing in my heart for my wife ? At least I haven't left her and she is enjoying all the comforts of life which i give her!" My ! What a miserable life he must have .
Yyoung girls came to me and very nonchalantly say "Im the mistress of so and so . He takes very good care of me . He doesnt love his wife anymore . So, better me , than somebody else!" Maybe because I have had hundreds of students , some of these young mistresses believe that its okay to talk to me because they migth just be able to convince themselves that they are not doing anything wrong, so they open up to me .
Let me ,however, throw cold water over such thinking! Why then hasn't he publickly left his wife for you ? Isn't it a great possibility that he still loves his wife and that the love ( which you say no longer exists) is still there in the cistern of love just waiting to spring to life again ?
I've always been a romantic at heart , but I always bleed when a couple comes to me and says "we are on the verge of separation". We feel that there isn't any more love."
In case like this , I quitely turn the couple to people whose expertise lies in guidance and counseling .Yet, there are times when I have to listen to their tale of pain because they are young friends of mine or special friends of long standing.
LOVE NEVER DIES! NOT EVEN PUPPY LOVE . Somehow our first princess or our first knigth who entered our hearts in high school or in the early years in college still occupies a special place in our hearts.
But can love run out likethe wine in the wedding at Cana ? YES , it can! When it happens , look for a Mother Mary who will help set things straight . There are usually people trained in guidance and counseling we can turn to .
Please remember that anything that runs out of supply can still be replenished . All it takes is the desire , and the efforts of two people to look for the source of plenty. You usually find the source through PRAYER in the hands of God Almighty.